Inspiration

"All things in life happen for a reason!"

Such a common saying but this is how I believe my life has come to be. I never thought as a younger person that my actions would influence my life today as an adult so much. Growing up I definitively had my ups and downs, sometimes it seemed more downs.

My life seemed to take a turn at the age of fourteen right after my parents divorce was final. Till this time in my life you could have said I was a close to perfect kid. I had never gotten in trouble and was getting straight A's in school. Then that one year changed everything and my life began to spiral. I started rebelling with the best of them and lets just say I got in my share of trouble through the years. I tried to pull myself up and out of the rut I had dug but it just wasn't working.

My life continued to be shaky and I moved away, however I was always drawn back. It took me a few years but after high school I seemed to pull my life back together little by little. Now as I sit here and look back on the troubled days of my youth, along with the hurt I caused my family, I know it was my plan in life.

Sure it may sound stupid but if all those things hadn't happened to me then I would have never learned the lessons that have made me into the person I am today. Without the pain and the suffering I would have never known love and happiness. So yes I now believe everything happens for a reason, for without who we were there would be no who we are today.

So the next time something in your life is hard, just remember it's all for a reason. Good or bad what happens in life shapes the person you are meant to be, so hang in there what is meant to be will be.

Continued Journey of Education

    Where my journey began was the age of seven, there I stood in the hospital with a new little brother who was very sick. As it turned out he was born with pneumonia and had to be flown to another, bigger hospital. So there I stood outside the NICU watching them prepare him to be flown out and I looked at my mom and said, "I'm going to be a baby doctor when I grow up."

     Well as you can see I didn't make it there yet, somewhere along the way I lost track of that dream. Sure I eventually went back to school for CMA and then for EMT but nothing ever stuck. I just continued to drift through life. I never had a problem finding work and supporting myself but as time went it just didn't feel right anymore.

     You may ask so what changed, why know? Well do you see that little boy in the picture, that's what happened. That little man was my saving grace and changed my life forever. My son was born just a little over a year ago when I was at what I would call a low point of my life. I knew the moment he was born things had to change, no more living day to day.

    I sat down with my mom and sought out her advice on a route to take and here I am, a 31 year old single mom working toward my degree. I knew from the start it was going to be a challenge, however the end result is so worth it. I know now that I have a starting point and a goal to reaching a better future for my son and me. Sure it may not be the dream that started in my head at age 7 but who's not to say I can't with time fulfill that dream as well, only time will tell.

     So my advice to all of you out there that feel lost, don't give up. Things maybe hard now but like I always say, "It's more satisfying when you know you worked hard for what you have."